uninspired

i've been feeling very nua recently. be it in life, and mostly, during trainings. 

perhaps, i've lost my zeal to excel, to strive for my goals. or basically, i've forgotten what i'm playing for, what i'm living for. everyday seems mundane and just going by the book. going by the rules of life.. 

i'm just tired. i just need a getaway from everything.. from floorball. 

or maybe, i'm just bothered by the fact that i'm playing lousily. that i'm not showing mark improvements.. 

my close friends will know. i play for the team, not so much of as a personal goal, but for the team. and now that the team is no longer whole, there goes my motivation too. 

blow wind blow... bring my lousiness and depression away.. 

i need some time to sort out my thoughts. and hopefully, when i return, i will blast the courts, i will be full of hope.. 

from jimmy: 

u play to improve ur skills

to enjoy ur game

to learn from it