just some frustration(s)

i don't remember myself being so angry and pissed, for a long long time.

i'm not talking about being pissed with myself like for performing badly in a game. but more of the pissed off feeling when someone breaks his promises, and fail you again and again till you totally changed your perception of someone.

and yeah, no one has made me this pissed off till i can't find the energy to force a smile anymore.

i'm going to (shamelessly) admit that i'm a good natured person. too nice at times. i dare not make enemies and tries to make people around me happy with me.

and whats the use of this all when people don't give a f**k of how you feel, of how much they troubled you, and not to mention, appreciate the kindness and tolerance shown to them?

i know i'm a bitch. but there is a limit to my patience. really.

my friends always tell me that they do not wish to see my angry side. and yes, now i have a tinge of how it will be when i really erupt into anger. it will be scary, something which i can't control too.

losing is a feeling i hate to experience. i've not lost in ages and having to lose twice in a single mod destroys me.

on a side note. BOSS results' out. i only got 3 mods. gonna clear the remaining two mktg modules on exchange and in yr4sem2 (if i ever go on exchange). should be doing one GE or strat or , an om mod.

chao.